More and more I'm realising I was born far too late. More and more I'm realising the people I fit in best with are the people I see the least. More and more I'm realising that I'm changing faster than I thought I would.
It's just one of those points in life. Where you realise you get on better with people almost twice your age. Where you realise certain relationships have grown stale and your not actually sure you want to renew them. Where you want to completely change your outward appearance to illustrate the change within. Where you want to move to Scandinavia.
This is another reason I'm annoyed at having to resit the year- I just don't really fit in there. I'm so eager to get out there- to broaden my horizons; too see MORE.
I want to live in a library.
I want to shave my head.
I want to wear lipstick.
I want to stay up to watch the sun rise.
I want to make campfires.
I want to learn to sing.
I want to wear headdresses.
I want to dance to 80s ska-punk with tall lads wearing shades.
I want to travel.
I want to abandon technology for a while.
I want to act every day.
I want to wear fancy dress for the sake of it.
I want to swim in the wild.
I want to talk for hours and hours about everything and anything.
I want to drink coffee.
I want to not worry about money.
I want to walk everywhere I go.
I want to re-decorate.
I want to develop my own film.
I want the impossibly perfect life everyone dreams of. But it's probably nothing like yours.